Valerie Rutherford (fireflys_locket) wrote,
Valerie Rutherford
fireflys_locket

Nothing but a Heartache

I dreamed quite vividly last night. Mostly of Morgan. Now that I'm awake, I feel like my heart was carved out. I just want to go back to sleep where Morgan is real and with me. Awake, I'm just miserable and alone.

But maybe it's normal to feel miserable today.

I want to write something beautiful and poignant about today, but I don't know how. I feel exhausted by emotion. I wasn't personally affected by September 11th, though I think you'd have to be a pretty cold person to not be affected by it in some way. I think I do remember writing something on the 5th anniversary in my paper journal.

*Sighs*

Well, yesterday, I did have an interesting day. I went to a fall festival with Jan and Paul. I didn't have any money, which made me not want to bother with going, but I'm glad I did. I spotted a woman at a booth with lots of books and walked over, figuring she might be a self-published author. And indeed, I was right. It was really nice talking with her, though I feel like I was probably rambling too much. Anyways, I took a look at her site, and I think I'll order a book soon.

The festival was nice. We enjoyed the band that was playing. It was very muddy, but someone had an idea to wash off in a little water pool. Jan and I did it, and suddenly, a bunch of people came over to do it, too. HeH. It was kind of funny.

Before yesterday, I spent two days of mostly Sims 2. I've been making lots of characters. I even changed a couple of names around, which means I'll have to edit Miss Masquerade a bit. I found a decent hair for Destiny, too. I'd like to make her soon, but though I know her history, I don't have a full name for her. Hmm. Eventually, I will put up pictures of characters, but I'm not sure how much of an interest there would be at this point.

I feel like I should write today, but just writing this made me feel weak. :/
Tags: dreams, family, fandom, miss masquerade, morgan, the sims, video games, writing
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