Valerie Rutherford (fireflys_locket) wrote,
Valerie Rutherford

I'm kind of mad at myself...

... because I did it again. I scared myself senseless. Okay, maybe not senseless. Maybe Jill was right when she said I'd come a long way since my Rule of Rose fiasco. But let me start at the beginning.

Boredom is a dangerous thing. Luckily, I have little of that. But I do have laziness, which can produce similar results. Wednesday morning, I was feeling particularly lazy. I didn't want to take a shower; I just wanted to surf around on Gaia. (And I'll take this moment to mention that I've already had an incident of a traumatic nature on Gaia. Sometimes, I start to value Neopets' over-watchful nature.) I was on a board meant for internet memes and such. I expected these posts to be funny... or at least worth an eye-roll.

Then, I discovered The Slender Man.

Yes, of course, I know it's fake. The first post even explains the creation of the legend. But just as Stray Dog before him, The Slender Man has become my new obsessive fear. Though not just from a couple of creepy pictures and a legend. No, this was where I made my mistake. After all, I did not go looking for scary stories. I know myself better than to do that. But just like when I was investigating why Rule of Rose on my rec list, something pulled me in. And I couldn't just leave it at that.

I found Marble Hornets. Marble Hornets is a (slightly) interactive story told through You Tube. And I love it. And hate it.

Why did I have to get myself invovled in something like this again? But at the same time, it's just so cool. How could I not? I love the format. I love the way the story is told as an out-of-order type mystery at first. And I think I've developed a character crush on Jay. ^///^; I like how he's not quite the horror-movie idiot that goes after monsters. He only really starts going after The Operator (aka Slender Man) when he seeing a video with a bleeding friend of his. "I need to find out where Alex has gone." And mostly, he tries to visit places in the daylight, though The Operator is seen in daylight, too. :/

I worry for Jay. I even sent him a message on You Tube.

Anyways, of course, scary stories put me on edge. I had to stop watching the videos and start reading the wiki page descriptions of each entry instead. Though, with me... my imagination might actually be giving me worse pictures than watching this amateur video project can give. In writing this, I watched the mentioned bleeding video, and it wasn't nearly as scary as I expected. I found the same thing to be true when I watched Rule of Rose via You Tube, compared to some of the most terrifying theories on Rule of Rose Mysteries.

But now, I'm stuck again in a horrible situation again. As much as I want to forget all about Marble Hornets and quit reading through the entries, I'm obsessing over it in my head anyway. Just like Rule of Rose. *Sighs* It's too late to turn back. And what's worse, Marble Hornets is ongoing. I can't just read the script and be done with is, as I did with Rule of Rose originally. I have to wait for more.

My only sanity salvation is my Mom's stories about how The Slender Man is actually not evil but just trying to protect the people, who fear and shun him. He's a misunderstood omen like The Grim. Oh, yeah... and Splendor Man. Neil Cicierega does it again! <3

Morgan, come save me! <3 I need you.
Tags: anxiety, fandom

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