Valerie Rutherford (fireflys_locket) wrote,
Valerie Rutherford

Never Thought

I've just had a pretty awful week. I never thought I'd feel worse on New Year's Eve than Christmas and Valentine's combined. I never thought I'd feel like this again for the same person. Life is so weird. But I'll try to stay off that topic... if I can. I'm not sure I want to write about that at this time. I'm sure I will someday.

Actually, I have been writing about my feelings. Just in a fictional way. Strange how stories can change or get additions that feel like they were meant to be there all along. I'm forever discovering new things about my characters that feel like they were always true, I just didn't know it yet. They're alive, I swear.

I read a great book during my horrible week, too. The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen. It was so much more enjoyable of a read than my last book. I'd read two other books by her some time ago, That Summer and Someone Like You, which were combined to make the movie, How to Deal. And I had already bought another book by her, Just Listen. So, after very little thought, I jumped into Just Listen the next day after I finished The Truth About Forever. It's pretty good so far, too. I love how real Sarah Dessen's characters feel to me. <3

As for me, personally... Well, suffice it to say, I'm trying to heal up my heart again.  And it will probably break again. But I'll just keep waiting for... the one that never makes you cry, as they say. Though, I'm sure even true love will make me cry. Just happy tears instead.

Happy New Year.

Tags: books, fandom, writing

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