The pain I hold in my heart... It isn't easy loving Seth. Watching him is so painful. It's hard to believe that only a year ago my heart was being ripped out by his talk of changing schools. And Amber... Yes, I remember coming back from Easter vacation to hear of her for the first time. And after that, my ears caught her name quite often.
Yes, that pain still exists...
I almost wish Matt was here. He seems to make me forget my awful pain somehow. However, if he was here, he'd be just the same as those other guys. He'd think me a wretched piece of filth just like Seth does.
And I couldn't take more of that... not at all.