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Writing Tears

I had a dream last night that is now a brand new story. It's very sad. I just wrote a little of a scene, and I actually cried while writing it. That the first time I've done that. (I should clarify; it's the first time that writing has made me cry, but I have many, many times turned crying into writing.) It's not as though I don't write sad things very often. In fact, it's the opposite. I used to think I couldn't write happy stories at all. Maybe it's true. I don't know. I still haven't really finished anything.

Something about dreams affects me so much. I think that's what it is. Dreaming in Shadow is often sad... and it came from a dream, but that was a long time ago. The feelings of this dream are fresh. And I honestly think I've gotten more and more sensitive over the years. I think I could write sad things for characters much easier 5 years ago. And more hurtful things to characters based on people I didn't like, too... ~_~; Now, I feel sorry for them. On one part, I guess I've become more forgiving?
 
I'll still write what comes to me. I won't betray the story, but it kind of hurts more now.