July 29th, 2010

Gina (Book Two) - fireflys_locket

Becoming less interesting...

So, apparently, one can only have 150 interests on LiveJournal. I tried to add one just now (Eli/Clare, though it may be temporary), and it told me I had the limit. So, I did some interest pruning. It did actually need it. And I could probably do more if I wanted to be strict, but I don't like this limit. I'm paying for LiveJournal services, and I am interested in way more than 150 things. Sorry, for being an "interesting" person? Actually, I'm not... but it would be nice if LJ could add on loyalty interests or some such, like they do with icons. Just a thought.

By the way, I actually had an Eli/Clare dream. o.O; I guess that shows that my subconcious, at least, has jumped ships. :/ I'm starting to wonder if K.C./Clare = Shouji/Hachi and Eli/Clare = Nobu/Hachi, for me. I was totally in love with Shouji/Hachi when I first started the manga, but then, he breaks her heart, and I was traumatized for awhile. I'm not sure I loved Shouji/Hachi quite at a comparable level to K.C./Clare, or for as long, but still.

This is so strange for me.

I think I'd be better off thinking of Clare (and Hachi, for that matter) more as daughters rather than as me. That way, I can still feel a strong connection with them, wanting the very best for them, but not feel so personally betrayed by the inevitable drama. As long as they end up happy, it shouldn't matter who they end up with. ..right? (Vanessa: Just keep repeating that, Valerie.)

Actually, in the dream, Eli was more "flirting" with me. As in trying to win me over, so I'd let him date my daughter. :P He said he'd become a vegetarian. A great way to score points with me!

Yes, I'm weird. I know.