Valerie Rutherford (fireflys_locket) wrote,
Valerie Rutherford

Emotional Pain

I've been going through a bad phase. Where I feel so depressed, so desperately sad, so terrified of the future that I can hardly function. This seems to happen to me about once a year, usually in the summer. So, it's nothing new, but I feel like every time it happens, I carry the weight of more pain with me. And I feel so hopeless.

I had a big panic attack last night. Crying and gasping for breath. Finger nails biting into my skin. I'm telling you all of this not for sympathy, but simply to acknowledge that anxiety is a real and debilitating thing. Trauma sometimes lives within you for your entire life. And it sneaks up on you. Knocking the breath out of you. Forcing you to curl into yourself. Wailing with pain. Begging for the agony to stop.

Emotional and mental wounds are just as real as physical ones. And everyone carries some level of pain with them. That's why it's important to try to meet people where they are with empathy. Some issues can't be fixed. Or reasoned out of. Some things we just have to go through. But having that compassion from others does help.

If you ever need to reach out to someone, I'm always here. I will try to always meet you with compassion. ❤
Tags: anxiety, bullying, health

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