I've finally figured out the structure of the second half of the series: what stretch of time each book will cover, where each book will begin and end, and just how many books there will be. These are things I've been mulling over for years, but it just suddenly all came together for me on Wednesday. The series will now contain ten main books (and many side novellas).
I still have a lot of technical things to figure out about each novel, and in particular, how the final book plays out. But I am really pleased with how well everything has come together so far. It's been really hard to let myself off the hook, to quiet the internal voices that tell me to keep pushing myself and chase the impossible dream of perfection. But the last couple of months have brought me a windfall of inspiration and ideas. Because I've been resting. Because I've been trying not to push and judge myself so harshly.
It's still difficult. Even now, part of my brain is shouting: push, push, push. But I can't (and I won't) give in this time. I need my own process. I need my own pace. And my intuition keeps proving that I'm right about that. I keep gaining in the quiet moments, not losing.
I have a long way to go. We *all* have a long way to go. And I am still scared of so very many things. But for the first time in a while, I'm seeing the potential for brighter days ahead. 💕