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Writing Experience

Yesterday, I worked a bit on Hate You, Hate Me Chapter 12. Shocker, right? It's been a long time coming. I was thinking about how unfinished this well outlined plot was, and how it would be nice to have a new chapter up for Audry's birthday. The problem was that I hadn't worked on a new chapter in over 6 years. I had to turn to my old 8th grade notebook, where I wrote a mere 3 page chapter. When I was in 8th grade.

It's horrible. I mean... wow. I haven't seriously looked at notebooks this old in a while. Yes, not so long ago, I was rewriting Dreaming in Shadow out of a Freshman Year notebook, but my writing changed in the time between 8th grade and then. I improved a lot. Hopefully, I've improved even more since then, but at least my old DiS notebooks were quite useful. Looking at this old chapter 12 is just frustrating me. Was I really that awful? Why did people bother reading my old fics like Green Flame Torch and Thyora's Tear that were written before this?

Of course, at the time, what I wrote in my notebooks were more of just a guideline for what I was going to post. I used to leave out whole scenes writing - insert blank here - often because they were big action scenes or needed music, but I was writing at school. I guess I shouldn't be so mad about these weak 3 pages of chapter 12, considered as just an outline. But I really wonder how it would have turned out if I'd typed it then.

Another thing I have to mention at this point is how much fluffyfledgling has helped my writing. When I started rewriting HYHM with her help, I used to rely on her to tell me which parts needed to be fleshed out, not having any idea of how to write larger chapters, especially with only one character's POV. Now, I often have trouble fitting everything I want to write in 8 to 10 pages... although, in this case, I'm talking about original stories and notebook pages, and I don't know how that translates at all.

A fear I'm facing now is worry that I've become detached from Draco. When I worked on rewriting chapter 11 earlier this year, it was easier to get back into it because I had so much emotion attached to that chapter and how drastically it changed my life. I don't have that kind of passion for this chapter. This wasn't a life changer for me, though you could say it is for Hermione. I think that's another thing I'm scared of: Hermione's miscarriage, which is half in this chapter half in the next. I have no idea what to do about this. I barely know anything about how pregnancy works, and I'm kind of squeamish, so I'm reluctant to look deeply into it. Yeah, I'll admit to that.

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fluffyfledgling
Sep. 7th, 2011 12:34 am (UTC)
Writing is such an emotional experience that sometimes I think you really can live quite vicariously through your characters... if you're up to it.

I know exactly how you feel! I have like a box of notebooks which include all my old Inuyasha fanfics that never saw completion (or word processing) and they're so awful. :( Cliched copies of all my secret fantasies. :P

Nice to see that you're writing!
fireflys_locket
Sep. 7th, 2011 02:24 am (UTC)
For me, my old writing is almost totally short and bland. Before you, I had so much trouble. So, you've really helped me. ^_^

And yes, I'm writing lots, thankfully. I'm working on three stories, mainly, and Spun of Silver on the side. I hope to fit this chapter of HYHM in before the end of October.
fluffyfledgling
Sep. 14th, 2011 04:31 am (UTC)
Aw, the growth is all your own! Feedback really does help, though. Good luck with finishing HYHM. I look forward to your email in two months.:)
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