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Want you here tonight...

The 7th grade was combined the whole day. Being a Catholic School, we had our confession day. We have it twice a year: Once before Christmas and once before Easter. I always dread confession days. I get horribly nervous and jumpy. I can't explain why really. I suppose it's just because the priest always looks at me when I'm finished as if to say, "And...". So I always end up saying, "And, that's it." Then he proceeds to look at me as though I am lying. Does anyone else feel that way, I wonder. It's suppose to make you feel better, isn't it? It always makes me feel like I am going to retch.

As I walked up the stairs, feeling rather sick indeed, I realized that classes had changed during my torment. I thought, "Wouldn't it be funny if he was in my seat?".

And guess what? He was. The he being the boy I mildly mentioned before as a fleeting object of affection. I will refer to him from now on as Jellybean. Although, I doubt I'll need to much...

So, I became even more upset. I no longer hold feelings for Jellybean, but it was still difficult to be near him. Why must I hold on to such negative things? Perhaps I'll never know.

Later though, I also had to deal with Seth. He spotted me reading some Saint Tail fanfiction. In the folder I also had my favorite picture of Saint Tail. He was staring at it. He asked annoying questions too. Sadly, it was the highlight of my day.

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(Anonymous)
Aug. 19th, 2004 12:21 am (UTC)
WoW!~!
The Jellybean! I remember those days! I actually remember when you wouldn't tell me these things! I also remember those days when you hated me and it was for no reason! I juss hope that that never happens again! Even though I already have many people that hate me as it is!! WRITE MORE!!!

~Nat~
(Anonymous)
Mar. 1st, 2005 06:54 am (UTC)
Oh...YOU!
Just let go of the negative comments. Memories. All negative stuff must GO. It's not doing you any good in your head. Boiling your brains and blackening your heart...
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